Things that aren’t real, but they are.
Beginning this week, I’ve noticed a new weirdness consisting of vibrations and ghost sensations. I think this is happening due to the increase in meds causing an overall elongation of the events. I can now, more fully appreciate the spasmodic events. The have gone from being 24/7 without treatment, to every 2-3 days lasting 8-10 hours to where they are now: 24 hours, and every 4-5 days.
Kathy thinks that the severity is the same, but my perception is more acute. I tend to agree. I will say my perception of what feelings in my body are real, I call in to question frequently.
I find that when I lie still, there is a vibration in my body. The first time I noticed it, I thought I had fallen asleep on my cell phone and it was going off. The cell phone was on my desk…with a dead battery (it’s charged now). I assumed that you could see my flesh vibrating with this sensation, however, it happened again while I was resting next to Kathy and she said there was no discernible movement in my body. It was an internal feeling. A ghost. My neurological system is so screwed up, I now have ghosts living in side of me. — If there weren’t enough of us in here as it is. LOL.
The internal ghost vibrations have ghost heating pads to keep them company. I feel like I have a heating pad applied to the outside of my body, and it keeps moving. The warm spots last for about a minute then move. It keeps life interesting.
One thing of note: The spasm I had Friday night (I referred to it as a lightning spasm) did some lasting damage. I’m walking, kinda, with the help of a krutch, or wheelchair. Either is difficult. I’ve injured about 60-70% of the muscles in the left side of my being, from head to toe. Mobility is an issue again. I can’t put weight on my left leg, and my left arm is in sufficient pain to make operating the wheel of a chair difficult, and painful. I generally choose to gimp around on a crutch because I can suspend my weight on it. I’m trying to heal the muscles using the RICE technique as much as I can. Hopefully, mobility will improve in a couple of days.
Thanks for reading, God Bless,
Jay C. Theriot
You must wake up each morning automatically praying and thinking “Well, what will this day bring, Lord” and give me strength. I say my prayers in bed before my feet hit the floor and your name is mentioned. Hope it’s a good day for you, my friend.
Thanks Linda. I do exactly that. It has been interesting, to say the least.