Things that aren’t real, but they are.
Beginning this week, I’ve noticed a new weirdness consisting of vibrations and ghost sensations. I think this is happening due to the increase in meds causing an overall elongation of the events. I can now, more fully appreciate the spasmodic events. The have gone from being 24/7 without treatment, to every 2-3 days lasting 8-10 hours to where they are now: 24 hours, and every 4-5 days.
Kathy thinks that the severity is the same, but my perception is more acute. I tend to agree. I will say my perception of what feelings in my body are real, I call in to question frequently.
I find that when I lie still, there is a vibration in my body. The first time I noticed it, I thought I had fallen asleep on my cell phone and it was going off. The cell phone was on my desk…with a dead battery (it’s charged now). I assumed that you could see my flesh vibrating with this sensation, however, it happened again while I was resting next to Kathy and she said there was no discernible movement in my body. It was an internal feeling. A ghost. My neurological system is so screwed up, I now have ghosts living in side of me. — If there weren’t enough of us in here as it is. LOL.
The internal ghost vibrations have ghost heating pads to keep them company. I feel like I have a heating pad applied to the outside of my body, and it keeps moving. The warm spots last for about a minute then move. It keeps life interesting.
One thing of note: The spasm I had Friday night (I referred to it as a lightning spasm) did some lasting damage. I’m walking, kinda, with the help of a krutch, or wheelchair. Either is difficult. I’ve injured about 60-70% of the muscles in the left side of my being, from head to toe. Mobility is an issue again. I can’t put weight on my left leg, and my left arm is in sufficient pain to make operating the wheel of a chair difficult, and painful. I generally choose to gimp around on a crutch because I can suspend my weight on it. I’m trying to heal the muscles using the RICE technique as much as I can. Hopefully, mobility will improve in a couple of days.
Thanks for reading, God Bless,
Jay C. Theriot