Short and Sweet

We are now around 380 mcg/day.  The increase was yesterday morning at 7 am and I’ve already experienced a spaz attack.  However, it was short lived (praise the Lord).  However, I am now feeling my muscles tighten like a snare.

It is weird in that, with the increases in medication, I am now feeling more aware.  It’s one in the morning and I don’t feel like sleeping.  I just took a pain pill because my fingers and toes are contorting with the spasticity, but I don’t feel like sleeping.  Before you say, ewwww… I have to say it is kinda funny watching your digits do things they shouldn’t.  There isn’t a lot of pain associated with the digits… the pain comes mostly from the lactic acid build up.

I fear I am growing thin in my resolve.  The people that are supporting me through social media can’t imagine how much their words mean to me.  Today, they kept me going.  I was hoping for a couple of good days following the increase.  My body thought otherwise.  I watched as my condition quickly deteriorated and I just wanted to stop it, but I was powerless.  My wife asked me what she could do.  I said “nothing.” Continue reading “Short and Sweet”