We are now injecting 465 mcg\/day into my spine.\u00a0 The original estimate was\u00a0 that I would need about 300 mcg\/day.\u00a0 Additionally, I’ve been in the acute phase for about 24 hours.\u00a0 My muscles are all fried, and I’m about to go down for about an 18-hour nap.<\/p>\n
I need to deal with my anger.\u00a0 I realized after mentally reviewing the retribution from my family, that they had absolutely no concept of the situation I was in, at the time.\u00a0 Even after have neurosurgery, they were callous.\u00a0 <\/p>\n
I reaffirm I made the correct decision in cutting them out of Kathy and my journey.\u00a0 However, I was misguided in my belief and understanding what a family is.\u00a0 Due to the lock-in status of my mom, I grew up expecting my older siblings to behave like my parents.\u00a0 As an adult, I continued this belief, albeit incorrectly.\u00a0 Parties I was not invited for, family gatherings, meals started before we could get out of Sunday mass; all of these events happened exactly as they should have.\u00a0 I had no right to get upset.\u00a0 They are not my patriarchs or matriarchs and for me to expect them to behave in a manner that is commensurate with that role is entirely my error.\u00a0 It is an error that I will not allow to happen again.<\/p>\n
First, I have to heal, or at-least get on my feet the best I can.\u00a0 Things have to be stable.\u00a0 Then, I can reach out and attempt to repair the damage that I did.\u00a0 If I never stabilize, then I am willing to forgo their involvement in my life, unto death.<\/p>\n
I have made strides in getting my mother to understand what my problem is.\u00a0 For this, I am grateful. To have her minimize my condition was the largest life-insult of them all.\u00a0 She is now understanding the veracity of it and the fact that I will never return to work.\u00a0 She is working to understand the intense pain I frequently experience with this condition.<\/p>\n
Anyway, I feel I’m rambling.\u00a0 I’m physically exhausted.\u00a0 I am drifting off.<\/p>\n
God Bless,<\/p>\n
Jay C. Theriot<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
We are now injecting 465 mcg\/day into my spine.\u00a0 The original estimate was\u00a0 that I would need about 300 mcg\/day.\u00a0 Additionally, I’ve been in the acute phase for about 24 hours.\u00a0 My muscles are all fried, and I’m about to go down for about an 18-hour nap. I need to deal with my anger.\u00a0 I […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-70","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/jayscafe.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/70","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/jayscafe.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/jayscafe.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jayscafe.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jayscafe.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=70"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/jayscafe.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/70\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/jayscafe.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=70"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jayscafe.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=70"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jayscafe.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=70"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}